Well, I saw the urologist today. No answers yet. He did perform the finger wave (shudder) and scheduled me for more tests. He threw around the "C" word but basically said that he wanted to make sure that it was not this. He did not offer an opinion one way or another other than that.

I pray that it is not. Its hard not knowing whats going on. I'm afraid to look up anything about the disease. I guess I am afraid that if I do I'll jinx myself and make it so.

To top it all off, I think I picked up something while I was waiting in the Emergency room the other day. I spent 10 hours there just to be told that I wasn't in any immediate danger of dying. I guess that's a plus.